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Thursday, October 6, 2016

Meat Grinder

This week has been the proverbial emotional meat grinder. Saturday, dad did great. By Sunday night he didn't know who any of us were. Three days of near total confusion. We started thinking about Hospice. Then the pain management doc changed his pain meds. 24 hours later, back to normal. In the meantime, we've moved him into an assisted living facility. Hopefully that works out once he's out of the hospital which looks like today or tomorrow if he stays mentally clear.

The PET scan came back with no further spreading of the cancer. That's a good thing. But now his right foot is swollen and no one knows why. Looking that today.

Yesterday dad told me, "why don't we just eliminate the pain meds so I can be in my right mind. That will speed my chemo treatments up won't it?" They won't do chemo until he is clear headed and out of the hospital so his proposal makes perfect sense except he is in intense pain from the tumor surrounding his sciatic nerve. So we agreed on a compromise. He will take the new pain meds for at least 24 hours and see how he does. If that goes well, we will stay on that and pursue all treatment options. Crazy my dad willing to suffer two or more months of pain to make sure the chemo is done.

Anyway, I have taken two trades this week. Both small losers. Its been a month since I last traded and for some reason, I felt calm but my hands were a bit sweaty on the first trade. Today back to normal in terms of my emotions and physical reactions. I'm not sure trading is the best thing for me to be doing right now but my wife seems to think its therapeutic for me and she might be right.

Sunday we are headed for San Diego for a couple of days if dad is doing well. We have a relative there that is having some surgery and requested our help with a few things for a couple of days and they've been such great friends to my family I can't really say no. Plus I love San Diego!!!! Hopefully spend at least one full day at the beach. The one place that seems to have the best therapeutic effect on my soul. I always feel better when I'm near the ocean. I'd love to buy a place on the water there but the seven figure price tag puts that out of the question any time soon!!!

Until next time.

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